Scared I might have Bipolar?

The fact that you KNOW there is something wrong with you is half the battle. My oldest daughter suffered from depression for years. However, when she had her son her whole personality changed. She became angry at everything, she never slept, and she lost a lot of weight. I knew something wasn't right. When I found her crying at 2 am at the kitchen table, I knew I needed to get her help. The first doctor just told her she had postpartum depression and gave her an antidepressant. All that did was make her sleep. We went to two doctors before she was diagnosed with bipolar depression and anxiety. She was given medication and therapy and now she is great. Please don't listen to the doctors that tell you there's nothing wrong. You know yourself better than anyone. Even if you have to go to the emergency room and say you feel like your coming apart, to get help, do it. So many people (doctors) don't want to take the time to "really " listen. Scream if you have to but find someone to help you before you do something you can't take back. Talk to your family or a friend you trust that can be your advocate. Don't try to go it alone. I will pray for you - God Bless.