Can't handle it all!!?

I'm so fed up! I can't seem to do anything right, my family scream at me because I'm anorexic, and my friends have left me, I have nothing going for me! I'm scared about going back to college tomorrow because my class know I'm anorexic, I just can't handle it all! I feel so alone! I feel really weak and hope next time I faint that i don't wake up. I already see 2 counsellors.