Dealing with roads not travelled?

Anybody whose life is not 100% perfect (i.e. everybody on the planet) can relate to occasionally thinking the grass might be greener somewhere else. It's been a long time since you knew the other fella and its unsurprising, given your unsatisfactory relationship with the predominant male influence in your life at that stage that you have idealised your time with him to some extent. I note you quite obviously blame yourself for the breakdown in your relationship, citing issues with intimacy. Am sure he had as much to do with it as you - if you try to objectively review your memories you'll remember he wasn't perfect. Please also note how easy it is to make yourself and your life look interesting, fun and happy on Facebook. We all put our best foot forward in that sort of arena (wherein the truth is easily obscured). He will be a different person to the one you remember, and a different person to the one he presents on a silly profile page. You say that you're happy and settled, but in your weaker moments you fantasise. What's wrong with that? As long as there is no expectation of action, your imagination is your own. If its distressing you, why don't you friend him on Facebook. Once you apply some reality to the situation I think you'll feel better. Good luck.