Missing my XC team :( ...Help?

I'm on track and doing XC this year and I know what you mean. Before every meet I would be scared and sometimes cried the night before. But once you run and get it over with, it gets better. I played field hockey and lacrosse, you might want to do a team sport. I was never nervous during field hockey because it's a team sport, whenever you loose, you loose as a team. It can't be one person's fault. If you're insecure about your team missing you, you should probably find a new team anyways. But you can always hang out with them, I hang out with the track girls all the time even though the season ended a month ago because they're my best friends now. But if you want to do XC just think about it like this: if you can overcome your fear of meets, or just run in meets even if your are nervous, you can overcome anything. That's how I thought about it anyways. Good luck!